Still Going...

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Last week was a success!  Monday, Tuesday and (unexpectedly) Thursday were days at the new gym.  Friday was a day at the pool, but it was short since it seems no one is tending to the pool lately.  I'll plan to hit the pool at our gym, then, not a problem.  I'm proud of myself not so much for hauling myself to the gym last week as much as I am for hauling myself AND TWO BABIES to the gym!  Leaving them in the child care area is heart wrenching.  I take comfort in the fact that they are in the "babies only" room, and that all personnel there has extensive background/fingerprint checks and monthly drug testing.  It's a great place, it's just hard to walk away from crying babies who are sad because I'm walking away from them.  I know, it's a phase all babies go through.  That doesn't make it any easier!

Anyway, we celebrated the babies' 1st birthday party, so my food was great till then.  I've had a little cupcake every day since (including today already!), but I realized something at lunch as I was chowing down on one.  When I'm feeling thinner, trimmer and less bulky, it's MUCH easier to say no to sweets and stick with the pre-determined cheat day.  Right now, I'm in the stage where I'm doing great to get to the gym and just be aware of my food intake.  It's not like I'm eating 5 or 6 cupcakes (oh yes I can do that, trust me I've seen me do it).  I'm taking baby steps toward a much bigger picture.  I'm not even feeling guilty, I'm just OK with the fact that I keep it to ONE cupcake.  haha

I've got appointments for childcare at the gym already for Monday & Tuesday.  We can only schedule 48 hours in advance, so I've been sure to get it done as each day comes.  This is an intense week of having (out-of-town) company coming to help me sew some baptism gear, so that's going to be it till Saturday.  I'm pretty good with that!

It's A New Day...Again

Well, yesterday was a start and today begins a new phase in my life (oh, how many times have I said that?).  We went to church services yesterday and left DT's (darling twins) to the nursery to stay there for the first time without us.  Wow, that was pretty rough for me.

After church, we stopped by the local athletic center and I signed up.  Yes, that is a huge step for me.  I reserved a spot for child care for today and tomorrow, which means that I'm committed to going for these two days at least.  Getting there is no big deal, it's the routine for DT's and getting them loaded up and dropped off and actually leaving them that's getting me.  Oh, and I'm going at high noon when it's 103 degrees outside.  Add that to the mix.  Can my brain process all this?!  I'm still sore from my swim and grass mowing on Saturday!  I posted those on twitter, are you following me?

Well, it's a huge deal, today is.  I've got 4 weeks until a big event and a dress I've got to fit into, so it's time to get my ass in gear, it's time to start taking the bambinos to day care for at least an hour at a time.  They're being baptized in 4 weeks, and I don't want to be the fat mom in the pictures.  When I see pictures of myself with them, I cringe.  I avoid having my picture made with my babies because I hate the way I look.  That pretty much sucks.

Here's what I'm planning so far:  Writing in my food journal again; it's been a while.  For this week, "cheat days" are Tuesday and Friday (DT's birthday cake).  Going to the gym Today and tomorrow.  Swimming Friday morning and perhaps Saturday morning too.  That's all I've got for now.  I'll try to tweet and keep a post going every now and then.

Wish me luck, I'm headed BACK TO THE GYM TODAY!!!  It's been a long time!  Today's weight check in is 204.2 lbs according to my scale (I"m sure it's at least 25 pounds over).  Here I go!